thankful to be a mom

being a mom is such a privelege....it's

also a challenge....definitely hard work. but

it is SO worth it! i love my 3 kids more than

my own life, and i would do anything to keep

them safe and healthy. i'm truly blessed to

have them & i hope they know how

happy they make me! :)

happy mother's day!

mommy, can we talk about God

so the kids were all being a pain in the
butt tonite....and then at the dinner table,
daniela asks, "mommy, can we talk about God &
what we love about Him?"

i said, "sure".

she said, "i just love that He made Santa
Claus & his beard, too. and that he made
all the presents Santa gives us." "now, what
do you love about God?"

i said, "that He gave you guys to me."

she said, "that IS good. i am also loving that God
made video games. they are SO much better
than board games & i get to put the game in the
gamecube. little man won't let me play, but
at least i get to put the game in."

awwwwww.....is she not the sweetest little thing
sometimes?? totally brightened my mood. :)

help! reality check needed ASAP!

so, our 14 year old daughter,
angelica, laid some heavy
news on us today....shocking
news, in fact. she has been
dating a 16- soon to be 17 year
old boy!! he's a JR in HS &
she's only a FRESHMAN!!

okay, so i've been pretty calm
about all this, but jesse is
not doing as well.

especially, after hearing about
them kissing & saying i love you
& talking about the "future"!!
ding dang, ya'll...i don't know
what to do with all this info!!

whew!! deep breaths beginning
so i don't have a freakin' panic
attack!! he's 2 years & 2 months
older than her!! he'll be graduating
next freakin' YEAR!!!

okay, so obviously the BIGGEST
concern i had is that i've always
been open with Lica & have NEVER
given her a reason not to talk
to me about life stuff...including
freakin' boyfriends. so i must
admit i've had a good cry about
why she didn't tell me about him.
they've already been dating a MONTH
on Wednesday!! and when she's gone
to the mall, she's been meeting up
with him & saturday she met him
in the park!

so, the reason she brought him up
now is that he wants to meet us.
he even freakin' asked her what's the
youngest age she'd want to get
engaged! WHAT????!!!! ENGAGED???!!!
she's freakin' FOURTEEN!!!!

whew!! deep breaths again.....

wow! anyone have any advice?
part of me says, "it's not that
big of deal...they're not going
to last...they'll break up & she'll
be heart broken but will move on...
right???" so i don't want to freak
them out & i want to let her
go through this whole process...it's
part of growing up...but on the other
hand...he's 16! that's when jesse
& i started dating & WE started
talking about the "future" &
marriage within our first month of
dating, too!! look @ us...17 years
later...so it happens, right??
omg!! i think i'm gonna pass out!!

whew! deep breaths....deep breaths...
slowly....wow.

so i told her since we know about
him now, there will be no "secret"
meetings. if she wants to see him,
she can tell us. if she has nothing
to hide, then don't hide!! and
under NO circumstances is he allowed
in our house when we're not home. period!
fortunately, she's never home by
herself...so one of the other kids
will tell on her if he comes over.

okay, so doesn't this seem like she
is WAY too young for all this???!!!
seriously, next July he'll be an "adult"
technically speaking & then it will
be ILLEGAL for him to you know....so
is it weird for him to be dating a
minor??

omg!! this is freakin' too much....
share your thoughts, advice, etc.

hindsight is clear

i've had a pretty rough year.
it's not the first bad year i've had, and
i'm sure it's not the last.
nevertheless,
it's not been one that i'll look back
on fondly.
or should i ?

lately i have found myself crying
out loud to & from work.
crying out
to God asking him WHY????
why can't
i find another job???
i felt like i was
being punished for something, but
wasn't sure what it was.

then, just
when i thought i literally couldn't make
it any further without spiraling into a
deeper depression---
my prayers were
answered.
a job was offered.
i accepted.
now my future is looking much
more positive.

so, why did i have to go
through the long wait,
the rejection,
the anticipation,
the hoping,
the praying,
the insanity?

i think it's becuz after working
the retail job
{which was my job of desperation}
i am SO thrilled
to be going back into the work force.
before??
not so much.
i knew i HAD to
work outside of the home, but i really
dreaded making that transition after being
unemployed for 6 months.
i think that
with the attitude of dread i had,
no job would have made me happy.
none would have been a good fit.
i would have been depressed
all the time & wasted an opportunity
to start re-building a career for myself.

now, after these looooooooong weeks,
i have never been
HAPPIER to find a job!!
an office job.
a new career.
:) :) :)

so, instead of thinking of all the bad things
that have happened this year. i'm choosing
to remember the positive. :)
you know,
i really have had a great year.

i got to travel to chicago
with my husband &
hang out with my friends.
i got my 1st tattoo.
i flew to michigan to hang out with my friends.
i lived to enjoy another year of my kids' lives.

what could be better than this????
life is good.

friday, again!

yep! it's friday...the beginning of the weekend.
although, my days have been all messed up
since the kids got out of school on wednesday.
i kept thinking THAT was friday...not today!

so, this is day #5 on sbd, and i'm proud of
myself...absolutely NO cheating!!! this is the
best i've done on a diet in a LOOOONG time!!
i can't wait to see how much i've lost on monday!

well, the kids' summer break has begun &
so has the fighting....little man just slapped
his baby sister...so i grounded him until monday
from his phone & d.s. i sent him to his room & told
him not to slam his door...well, about 3 minutes
later this "BOOM" sounded & it was him slamming
his door after i told him not to!! oh no he din't!
now he's grounded for an entire week...doesn't
pay to misbehave!

It's MY day....Mother's DAY! ;)

can i just say that i LOVE being
a mom?? well, most of the time,
anyway. sure, there are those
moments....the kids screaming at
each other....the sound of toys flying
across the room....doors slamming...
tempers flaring....the cries for "Mahhhm!"

but aside from all these moments.....the
thrill of knowing i can make a difference
in 3 people's lives is exhilirating! it makes
me smile to know that the happy
times *usually* out-weigh the
crazy madness....and that one day i'll
long to hear those screams when
the house is quiet & still.

happy mom's day to each of you who
are mothers! kiss your kids more than
once today & let them know you are
thankful to be their mom! :)

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my kids did the sweetest thing for me
this morning.....they made me heart shaped
waffles & hazelnut coffee! Mmmmm....
and the BEST part??? it was actually
edible this year! LOL! the kids are finally
getting old enough to make delicious
things for me, instead of gross-looking
concoctions that a dog wouldn't even eat!
oh, this is just another joy of motherhood! ;)

it's been a while

since i've blogged...just to blog. :)
so, i thought i'd do it today.

the kids are getting anxious for
school to get out, but becuz of
snow days it will be JUNE 6!

lica & little man have both
improved their grades over the
last 4 weeks. i hope that trend
continues & that they will end
the year with great averages!
*fingers crossed*

found out the other day that
my dad is going to be here
May 27th- June 4th. that will
be cool, becuz he'll be able to
be at daniela's 4th birthday party!
she is so excited to have him
here & she thinks he's going
to buy her ALL of her b-day
presents! LOL!

speaking of daniela's b-day.
she still hasn't decided what theme
she wants to have. it changes *literally*
by the minute! she's gone back &
forth between the LITTLE MERMAID,
SPONGEBOB, the PRINCESSES,
HELLO KITTY, and DORA.

i'm ruling out Dora for her, becuz
she had that theme last year.
the others i'm cool with, if she would
JUST DECIDE already! :)

i've got to set up her annual photo
shoot @ bedford's....but jesse
wants me to take her pics. the problem
is she cooperates better
with someone else. *rolleyes*
and, it's become an annual tradition.

time to clean my house....i've been
scrapping instead....oops! ;)