monday musings

ahhhhh....i'm enjoying the 3rd day of my
weekend today. :) and this is a short week for
me since i'm off friday. we'll be road trippin'
to san antonio to visit family & watch the spurs
play phoenix on sunday! i'm EcStATic!!!!! :)
jesse's been to SA twice in the last 2 years,
but the rest of the fam hasn't been in several
years....so we are really looking forward to
seeing everyone and indulging in our FAVE
foods and spots.

Old Danny's Cocina- a family owned mexican restaurant, not
a chain, just handmade flour tortillas as big as a
steering wheel!! i'm not kidding! they are HUGE
and oh soooooo tasty!!

Taco Cabana- all over texas, but dang they've got
the best carne guisada tacos! mmmmm!

Bill Miller's- originated in SA and has branched out
to corpus christi and austin, but that's it! soooo....
it is MUST EAT bbq every time we're in SA!
Po' Boy Plus! mmmmm!

Tia Betty- okay, not a restaurant, but jesse's aunt
always makes us a homemade mexican meal that's
uber delish!! can't wait!

and of course, we must visit MARKET SQUARE!


okay....so on to other news. although i love having
a 3 day weekend every week, i have bid on 2 other
jobs at tyson that would put me back on a 5 day work
week. hoping to at least get interviewed for those
this week. i hate losing the 4 day work week, BUT
i can't pass up the opportunity to advance either.
so we'll see what happens.

i think i'm sick in the head

so, apparently jesse hit the nail on the
head last nite. i've been a little wound
up this weekend & couldn't figure out
why i felt so antsy. he said he knew
what my problem was & for once i think
he might be right....he said i have the
reverse of being home sick.....i want
to be at work! *GASP* what is wrong
with me???

*Up Since FOUR*

OMG! I'm such a kid today!! :) I
could NOT make myself go to sleep
last nite! I was so excited about
starting the new job today that I couldn't
stop thinking about it & wondering
what it would be like. I kept picturing
the building....trying to remember how to get
to the floor my department is on. Of course,
it doesn't really matter, becuz they'll
have to escort me there anyway since
I'll be checking in as a visitor today.....
but tomorrow i'll officially be an EMPLOYEE!! :)

Anyway, so then, I woke up @ 4:00 a.m.
today.....went to the bathroom......tried to
go back to sleep....tossed & turned......finally
gave UP!! :) :) :)

it's almost time.....

to report for my NEW job!!

monday will be here before i know

it!! :)

so tonite (early sunday a.m., actually)

i have been occupying my hands with

some scrapping! :) shannon & carla

each posted awesome sketches

@ SAL & i that got me in the mood to

scrap a little!

hope you enjoy! :)

another manic monday?

okay...not even close!! today was a pretty
laid back day for me. i came home from
work early becuz i've been sick. then i slept
all afternoon. now THAT's a good monday! ;)

my new boss called me today to finalize some
paperwork. i can't wait to start....only 1 week
from today! :)

i had to get groceries tonite & we bought
all the stuff to make homemade tamales
with this week!!! woohoo!! it's always such
a pain, but so worth it in the end! i hope to
start the roasts on wednesday & then start
making the tamales on thursday. i'm sure
i won't finish until the weekend....so thursday
thru saturday are pretty much tamale making
days!

hindsight is clear

i've had a pretty rough year.
it's not the first bad year i've had, and
i'm sure it's not the last.
nevertheless,
it's not been one that i'll look back
on fondly.
or should i ?

lately i have found myself crying
out loud to & from work.
crying out
to God asking him WHY????
why can't
i find another job???
i felt like i was
being punished for something, but
wasn't sure what it was.

then, just
when i thought i literally couldn't make
it any further without spiraling into a
deeper depression---
my prayers were
answered.
a job was offered.
i accepted.
now my future is looking much
more positive.

so, why did i have to go
through the long wait,
the rejection,
the anticipation,
the hoping,
the praying,
the insanity?

i think it's becuz after working
the retail job
{which was my job of desperation}
i am SO thrilled
to be going back into the work force.
before??
not so much.
i knew i HAD to
work outside of the home, but i really
dreaded making that transition after being
unemployed for 6 months.
i think that
with the attitude of dread i had,
no job would have made me happy.
none would have been a good fit.
i would have been depressed
all the time & wasted an opportunity
to start re-building a career for myself.

now, after these looooooooong weeks,
i have never been
HAPPIER to find a job!!
an office job.
a new career.
:) :) :)

so, instead of thinking of all the bad things
that have happened this year. i'm choosing
to remember the positive. :)
you know,
i really have had a great year.

i got to travel to chicago
with my husband &
hang out with my friends.
i got my 1st tattoo.
i flew to michigan to hang out with my friends.
i lived to enjoy another year of my kids' lives.

what could be better than this????
life is good.

God is SMILING on me!!!

my prayers have been answered!!!
after MONTHS of searching for a job,
applying, being rejected, applying,
interviewing, being rejected....blah, blah,
blah.....my day has FINALLY come!!!

I was offered & accepted a position with
Tyson Corporate today!!! WOOHOO!!!!!
To say I'm excited is really a HUGE
understatement!! I even got choked up
on the phone with them, becuz I didn't
think I'd ever be hired for an office job
again!!! It's been a rough 8 months, but
it will be worth it in the end!!! :)

My 1st day is December 3rd!! YESSSSSSSS!!!!
Only 2 more weeks on my feet!!!!!! :) :) :) :)
So, now I've just got to come up with some
cash to stock up on office clothes. It's dressier
than I'm used to , and right now I NEED to
take advantage of my discount!!! At least
I'm getting something out of this crappy retail
job, right?? ;-)

Okay, I'm going to try to stop bawling & fix some
lunch for baby girl & me. :)

8-1

that's right. the cowboys' record so
far this season is 8-1. the only team
that has beat us is the undefeated
patriots. makes me sooooo happy that
we are having such a FANTASTIC season!!
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

well, i guess i better go get some sleep. i leave
for work in less than 12 hours. :( it sure has been
nice these past few days off after working so
much lately. now i know why i never worked
in retail before. it sucks! but, it could be
worse....i could have no job. so, i'll try to
look on the bright side- i'm keeping my
kids secure in their home!! 'night!

where has the time gone??

so, it has been forever & a week since
i've blogged! shame on me...but it's really
not my fault. one of my friends was joking
about finding my face on a milk carton soon,
becuz i've been mia for so long. well, my reply
is that my former LIFE is going to wind up on
the milk carton & i want it BACK!!!

i tell you what...losing your job of 7 years SUCKS!
i don't know how many times i'm going to have
to "start over", but i wish i could find something
permanent & kind on my body SOON!! now, i suppose
there are worse things...at least i'm not selling my
girl stuff to the highest (or in some cases, the ONLY)
bidder! ;) but i wish things would change.

besides killing my foot & knees & being exhausted &
depressed all the time, i miss the fun times
with my family & online pals! i keep applying
for office jobs, but no one wants to hire someone
who's been fired. it really sucks, becuz if they would
give me a chance, i would prove to be a valuable
employee!!

anyway, it sounds like this blog post is all about
whining. so, i'm outta here. chat later. ;)

job hunt

well, i found out about the gig
like i did saturday....toooooooo
much travelling for me. i would
be gone 5 days a week for 31 weeks
out of the year!! EEEK!!! definitely
not my cup of tea....I'd like to raise
my kids, you know! and "run errands"
with my husband, too! :)

so, i'm on the prowl....searching for a
job still.

daniela is FINALLY better!! she ate
yesterday, and hasn't "lost" any of
it! so, i think she's over the hump &
on her way to normal again!

had a great day

my knees & legs & feet & lower back
are killing me, but i had a lot of fun
working @ CKC yesterday! the lady
that i was working for liked me SOOOOO
much that she wanted to hire me to
come on the road with her all the time!
i brushed it off & said i would if i didn't
have 3 kids....blah, blah, blah. but, jesse
said i should call her back & at least find
out the details.

i don't know. i just don't want to miss my
kids growing up...you know? of course,
i don't know how often they're on the road....
maybe it's not that bad, not really sure....but
i think they travel to a lot of conventions &
stuff to sell products. hmmmm...i guess
maybe i'll ask what all is involved. i'm not
trying to toot my own horn here, but i'm telling
you she was IMPRESSED! she even told the main
guy overseeing everything that she wants me
next year! so, i don't know...we shall see.....

so, daniela is still sick...poor baby! she doesn't
act sick anymore, but every time she tries to
eat it comes back up! i see another doctor's visit
in her near future...i just hope that can give her
something to make her well.... the doctor said
she wasn't concerned with her not eating...well,
that's fine, but for HOW LONG? it's been almost
a week since she's kept ANY food down. that's
a long time for someone to go without food.